Rainbows and Butterflies

It’s amazing how one thing, one choice, one action, one act of God can make such a huge impact on the direction of your life.  One moment you are just strutting along, living your life, and the next thing you know you’re turned upside-down with your plans completely thrown in the trash.  Everything you knew, or thought you knew, thrown out the window.

You’re probably following me if you’ve ever ended a long term relationship, lost a loved one, received an upsetting medical diagnosis, uncovered a lie, and the list goes on.

I was thinking about this topic quite a bit recently since my life got turned upside-down two months ago and will again next month when I move completely across the world.  Little did I know that it would happen again with a torn knee ligament a week before my marathon.  And now it may happen again tomorrow as I have found out that an act of God may change my plans.  Ladies and gents, my local airport is now under a blizzard warning.  A full blown blizzard is wrecking havoc on all three of the airports within a 150km radius of my house that fly to my destination.  

So what do I do? I could be all rainbows and butterflies and say I look for plan B.  I accept that my plans need to change and I just roll with it.  But truth be told, I’m a planner.  I thrive on control and knowing what’s going on.  And when my plans have to change last minute, or when something that I thought was true turns out to be a lie, I lose my shit.  My face gets hot, my chest tightens, and all I want to do is cry.  I want to stomp my feet just like a toddler and have everything go back to being my way. But alas, I’m not a toddler.  I’m somewhere in my twenties and I’d probably get taken away by airport security if I threw a hissy fit at the gate when my flight status gets changed to cancelled… but I’m getting ahead of myself, it’s only a blizzard warning thus far.  Flight is still scheduled.  

But guess what I’m going to do.  I’m going to be all rainbows and butterflies.  Because I am an adult now and I have to accept that plan A just won’t work.  I need to think on your feet and come up with a plan B and C just in case, and I need to put a smile on gosh darn it because I’m still alive after all.  And that’s what I’m going to try to do.  Tomorrow when I get all packed for the airport, I’m going to put on my big girl pants and be prepared for the worst.  And if things do not go my way then I’m going to try my hardest to look on the bright side.  Besides, things could be worse… I could be in class.  And after all, I’m a firm believer in Karma and you don’t want any hissy fit vibes being let loose in the universe.  

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