Sunday night I decided that I was not going to let myself wallow around my house. I remembered back to last winter when I had a hot yoga membership and the Karma class came to mind – a $5 one hour class every Sunday. I made the choice to attend this week’s karma class.

The local yoga studio that I attended last winter is a remarkable place. I was introduced in August of 2012 and began attending full-time in November when the stress of term papers and exams was getting the best of me. I continued until April of this year, when unfortunately the membership price rose and it no longer was feasible with my student budget. The time I spent on my mat in the studio’s 100 degree room was truly a time of personal growth. It enabled me to push past some of the boundaries I had earlier placed on myself while at the same time allowed me to relax and accept myself for who I was. I knew this Sunday that being back on my mat was an activity that would allow me to spend a healthy hour out of the house around other people and help me relax. What I didn’t realize was that it would completely invade my healing process and bring out the raw emotions I was harbouring inside.

That hour was one of the most intense hours I’ve emotionally experienced. As the sweat began to pour from my face, so did the tears. Throughout the entire class, a constant flow of tears leaked from the corner of my eyes. As the teacher constantly reminded the class to focus on our ujjayi breath instead of our thoughts, I slowly began to focus on the practice. Even though the hurt in my heart still remained, for that hour I was able to do something productive for myself. With every move that I was able to bend a little deeper in or hold for an extra breath, a sense of empowerment came. Somewhere between the time I got on my mat to the time I was changing out of my sweat soaked clothes, I realized that my life was in my hands and my hands alone. I was granted the opportunity in my life to take control. Was I going to let it slip or could I rise to the challenge?

When leaving the yoga studio, emotions were pouring out of me. As I climbed back into my vehicle, sobs choked in my throat. And then, just as quickly as it overcame me, it ended.

I was my own person. I chose my own desires. I had the ability to control my life. And I started to believe this.

I am so thankful for the yoga studio that welcomed me back to their class with warming smiles. That looked past my tear-stained face and accepted me. That allowed me the opportunity to grow. This past weekend has been unfathomably tough but I’m starting to realize the potential it has for personal growth. Participating in various forms of physical activity, both running and yoga, has helped me realize the strength I have within. I has allowed me to expel the damaging energy I’ve been carrying around inside my heart and filled the vacant spaces with breaths of fresh air. It’s an unbelievable opportunity that we all posses; do you take advantage?


Day 6

Whew! I just finished Plyometric Cardio Circuit and let me tell you, my body is glistening in sweat!

I have great news and that is that I can already see improvements!  My squats are getting quicker and for the level 1 drill I could actually continuously do the moves (including push-ups WITHOUT my knees on the ground!!).  I was struggling once again with the “ski abs” and the “in and outs.”  By the time the last time doing those moves I knew that my form was failing so instead I held a plank for 60s.  Hopefully as the days progress I can get stronger in those moves!

Another bonus is that I am starting to enjoy the workouts.  I find Shaun T motivating and the moves are challenging so I definitely feel I am getting a workout in.  I find that the longer I stick with something, the more routine it becomes, and mentally the work becomes easier.  Let’s hope this trend continues.

Now I am headed to a 60 minute yoga practice.  This is one of the easier classes of the week so I really want to use this time to stretch out my hard worked muscles and unwind a little bit. 

Namaste y’all

Day 3: A Not So Recovering Recovery

Today was tough.  Not necessarily physically, but mentally.  I was not into this workout tonight nor did I ever get into it.

The first problem  came from the fact that after work I was so beat that I took a nap… until 9 o’clock at night.  Probably not my smartest move but I didn’t even think about setting an alarm when I went to bed because who naps for 5 hours?  All I know is that when I woke up, I was dehydrated, groggy, and hungry.  Not a good mix of feelings to bring with you into a workout.

The second problem came from the misconceptions I had about this Cardio Recovery workout.  Before going into a workout, I like to know what I’m facing.  Mentally it allows myself to prepare for what’s to come.  Well, today that backfired.  I read some reviews (more than 1) that said this recovery workout was primarily composed of basic yoga moves and only ran 33 minutes in length.  I’m not sure what workout they’re using but it certainly wasn’t the same one I did!  My workout ran over 50 minutes (including warm-up & cool down) and included a lot more than the basic yoga move; since when are pulsing squats incorporated in a yoga flow? My point exactly!

Overall, once I grasped the fact that the workout was going to be close to an hour and it would make me work a little, it went okay.  I always incorporate cardio into my workout warm-ups no matter if I’m doing weights or yoga, so it was a bit different not to start my workout with my heartbeat gurgling in my throat.  I did sweat a little but no where near the level I normally do, maybe 10% of the sweat the other INSANITY workouts brought on.  As for the recover part, I know understand why its specifically cardio recovery and not just recovery; your heartbeat may not get a break from the cardio zone but your muscles have no chance to recover.  I found a lot of power & resistance moves in this workout and in INANITY fashion, a large focus on your core.

I am glad that I did the workout (now that I’m on the other side of it) and honestly don’t think I would have completed it tonight if I didn’t have my twitter followers holding me accountable and this review to write.  

A big thank you to all who have taken the time to read this and please feel free to contact me if you have any questions or thoughts!


Insanely yours, livefitandfree


I found out later that the workout I did was actually Max Recovery and not Cardio Recovery. See Correction: